2004-09-23 [bethbutterfly]: Besides, i'm just a teenager, I am bound to do something stupid and get caught sooner or later (luckily this is my first time). I can't help it that I do stupid stuff, it's just apart of me and I don't think about it until later like "Wow, I could've died!" or something. Meh. I am an idiot X_O

2004-09-24 [fjdka]: hehe... me 2!

2004-09-24 [bethbutterfly]: It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, not at all. :-P

2004-09-24 [Miss.Kayree]: ....

2004-09-24 [silvergoth]: ............

2004-09-24 [Miss.Kayree]: ......................................

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2004-09-24 [silvergoth]: O.o dramatic...

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: haha .. uhm did i miss something ?

2004-09-25 [Miss.Kayree]: <.< >.> nothing to see here.....

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: haha ok

2004-09-25 [Miss.Kayree]: *yawns* how're you doing?

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: depends .. im doing pretty bad..yet ok at the same time .. ur pick

2004-09-25 [Miss.Kayree]: whichever one you'd want to talk about... or we can move on to another topic... doesnt matter

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: heh well .. doesnt matter to me . so uhh hows it going with u then ?

2004-09-25 [Miss.Kayree]: eh... it's gone better...

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: heh yeah .. tell me about it .. eveything has just been messed up lately

2004-09-25 [Miss.Kayree]: probably the reason we are both in here...

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: heh yeah .. prob

2004-09-25 [Miss.Kayree]: i think a bug just flew into my eye....  :(

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: aww .. but yeah . my eyes have been bothering me lately to .. weird

2004-09-25 [bethbutterfly]: Eww, a bug in your eye. lol, that is weird O.o

2004-09-25 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: haha yeah . but uh im heading to bed now . not feeling to well . night guys

2004-09-25 [Gwendylyyn]: Society Gone Wrong It's a 'goth' bar that I just recently reopened. Check it out if you so wish.

2004-09-25 [bethbutterfly]: I would maybe possibly join it, but I am not goth. O.o

2004-09-26 [Miss.Kayree]: sorry.. i dont think i'll be joining....

2004-09-26 [Miss.Kayree]: nothing against "gothic" people, mind you....

2004-09-26 [Indigo Butterfly]: i can join

2004-09-26 [Miss.Kayree]: absolutly spiffing for you.

2004-09-27 [bethbutterfly]: I made banana nut bread today, yay!

2004-09-27 [Gwendylyyn]: Lol. Don't have to be 'goth'. I really don't like all that stereotyping bs...as I just said somewhere else..I only use 'goth' or any of those other things when I can not find another word to describe it.

2004-09-28 [Miss.Kayree]: i see... i'm not into those labeling type things... as for beth?? good for you!! (seriously) i love cooking

2004-09-29 [fjdka]: i hate being labled. that is y i play with every1!! like the "goths", "stoners", "magic pplz", "freaks", "special ed pplz", "morons" and more

2004-09-29 [bethbutterfly]: I don't fit under any label. Hehe ^_^ Unless I am under the label of label-less, which makes me, labeled.. AHH!

2004-09-29 [August Flower]: am depressed i just wanna diieee

2004-09-29 [tears of the mist]: why?? *hugs August*

2004-09-29 [HellzHalo426]: aww.. *hugz sad peoples~!*

2004-09-30 [fjdka]: it's ok... i wanna die too.. but unfortunatly i have to suck it up and live life

2004-09-30 [Indigo Butterfly]: yes i feel the same way

2004-09-30 [tears of the mist]: i agree

2004-09-30 [Miss.Kayree]: me too

2004-09-30 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: who doesnt ..

2004-10-01 [Miss.Kayree]: people that have everything given to them on a plate.

2004-10-01 [tears of the mist]: *nods gently*

2004-10-01 [BarleySinger]: I don't feel that way. I used to, but now I have real love in my life. I have had that love for many years now. It has made all the difference. Eventually I figured out that the biggest problem I had was "crappy parents living in a fundamentalist dream world". They never once told me they loved me. As far as I can tell, other than a parent keeping their kids alive/safe, the number 1 job of any parent to make sure that the kid grows up knowing that they are loved no matter what...no strings attached...and that they always will be.

2004-10-01 [HellzHalo426]: am i still allowed to be on this wiki if im no longer depressed but i was?

2004-10-02 [fjdka]: yes so u can advize us all!!!!!!!! about how 2 become un-depressed!!!!!

2004-10-03 [HellzHalo426]: ohh! okay!!

2004-10-03 [tears of the mist]: *smiles slightly* yeah..

2004-10-03 [silvergoth]: become un-depressed... that would indeed be nice... but I'm starting to believe it's impossible for me... more than just a while.

2004-10-03 [tears of the mist]: *hugs mrsNotting* everything is possible if you believe..

2004-10-03 [silvergoth]: *hugs back* I have tried.... tried getting help since I were 11 (am 17 now), and been selfdestructiv even longer... everytime I'm getting up, something draggs me futher down than before... I've lost my will to live even, more than ever before. I even drive my boyfriend away halfacross the world...

2004-10-03 [tears of the mist]: *shakes her head* *sighs* listen as your day unfolds, chalenge what the futer holds, try to keep your head up to the sky.

2004-10-03 [silvergoth]: *smiles unhappily* You don't think I've tried? I've tried so hard to live somewhat normal, I've tried so hard to get help... but the help in this coubtry sucks... and what else to belive then what most people around you tell you, that you're worthless ugly and just a waist of air?

2004-10-03 [tears of the mist]: i know you've tried, i can hear it.. *sighs* *keeps saying this carmly* and i know what its like..

2004-10-03 [silvergoth]: A wel... I don't matter, so I guess it doesn't matter...

2004-10-03 [tears of the mist]: you do matter..

2004-10-03 [silvergoth]: not much...

2004-10-04 [tears of the mist]: well you do to me... and many others..

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: *smiles a bit* you don't even know me... how can one matter to someone who doesn't know them?

2004-10-04 [BarleySinger]: not knowing you [silvergoth] does not mean that you do not matter. 

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: *shrugs* doesn't really mean that I do matter either.

2004-10-04 [tears of the mist]: fine then.. i give up.. theres no point in trying to tell someone there worth something when they have a clear opinion that there not. i leave it be. *looks away*

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: gett a gripp, we are alll worth something, beliving that u are not is nothing but dissrespecting thowse u deap down know cares...

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: pretty much every one feels every now and then that they're worthless. It'd be a lie to say otherwise. I'm at the point where I almost plan my own death. How easy is it for you guys to feel you're woerth a lot when being extremly down? We all have our really bad days....

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: i have feelt worthless.. belive me.. u have no idea.. but a feeling is JUST A FEELING not true.. and if u are aware of this u shouldnt say so.. proves nothing...only prowotes...

2004-10-04 [tears of the mist]: *nods in agree-ment*

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: My mom more or less tell me every day that I'm worthless. That's how I've been rasied the last years, with her telling me that my feelings means nothing, that I mean nothing. The only thing she said after I tried killing myself last year was "why didn't anyone tell me?" nothing about how I were or anything. So, when my mom tells me I'm worthless, is it really so weird I started believing so myself?

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: my mum dosent like me either.. my dad hits me and i runn away everynow and then.. u cant exept anyone to care.. u just care for them, as much u can, and thanks thowse who cares.. life is to give.. and are u lucky u gett something in return.. hard to gett, hard to live by.. but it is a way of life to..

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: my dad doesn't even want to know me... he hates everything I am, more or less. life isn't that easy for me, nor is just normal everyday living. I have no idea why, and I can't just "getta grip". Tried that. And tried getting help. For years, they just send me 'round. the help in this country sucks....

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: it does most places.. that might be becose many of the people getting the so called help have no intrest or will to be helped.. they disigded they are wothless, if there best friend left them they wouldnt want to be helped.. only thing they want is to be taken to another place, or to run away from all the misstakes of the world.. but by doing so u become the problem of someone u love, cares about or whatever u do..

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: well, anyway.. this is ur choise.. though.. ur not worthless.. i know no one that is..

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: *hugs* ^^

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: I've been seeking help for years cause I WANT help. have you been in the mental wards for children and youths here in Sweden? Most people I've seen there want help. I did. I still do. The people I knew well did. But mostly, kids often lost their will to live while in there, cause of the doctors. He laughed at several of the patiens. I don't want to be taken to another place, nor run away. I want to feel happyness, I want to live like a "normal" person. But I have serious problems that stops me from doing so. And I know I can't fix them alone....

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: I really want to believe I'm worth something again, I really do... I just don't know how... And I never chose to feel like this, or think like this... it started when I were 6, at least... *hugs back*

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hmm.. my started when my dad told me to leave.. i were 3 i think.. i didnt gett it.. i wiched i had the gutts to report him.. and, i dont think norways system is much diferend from swedens.. so yes, it sucks.. and i hate psycologs.. and dctors.. they think they know everything.. u mean a lott.. im sure.. :)

2004-10-04 [silvergoth]: uuh... I know what you mean... I had one cool and nice psycologist though... but she wasn't the original one on the ward I were in... so only talked to her a few times... =( maybe I do.... I dunno... takes time before nice things sink in, old lies die hard you know... old wonds aswell...

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: yes.. and everyonce in a while there comes new onces.. life isnt fair...

2004-10-04 [Miss.Kayree]: i dont like psychologists.. they ask too many questions.

2004-10-04 [Little Red Ridinghood]: no, they write to much on there freeking block..

2004-10-05 [HellzHalo426]: ahh so much writing

2004-10-05 [Miss.Kayree]: yes, that too

2004-10-05 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hehe.. yes.. ideed it is.. i love it! ^^

2004-10-05 [silvergoth]: lol... ^_^ but the worst ones are the ones who are so old they could fall down and die any second... *shrugs*

2004-10-05 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hihi.. ^^ dead over the evil grownups:P

2004-10-05 [silvergoth]: lol, yeah. ;P

2004-10-06 [Miss.Kayree]: i am... so bored... and i'm freezing.... and i'm tired...

2004-10-07 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: woah .. i missed alot ..

2004-10-07 [Miss.Kayree]: lol

2004-10-08 [Little Red Ridinghood]: damtidam^^

2004-10-08 [Miss.Kayree]: damtidam.... thats a new one...

2004-10-08 [Little Red Ridinghood]: not really:)

2004-10-08 [Miss.Kayree]: ah... well its new to me :P

2004-10-08 [Little Red Ridinghood]: than u learned something new^^

2004-10-08 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: its new to me to .. whats it mean ?

2004-10-09 [Little Red Ridinghood]: nuthing.. :P

2004-10-09 [BarleySinger]: Well [silvergoth] you say that My mom more or less tell me every day that I'm worthless. That, I hate to say it, is child abuse. Not all child abuse involves hitting. She is the problem, not you, and unless she gets help (and wants help) it will not change. No amount of therapy that you get will change her. Any adult who tells their kid that they are useless has serious problems in their own emotions and ideas about life, and is not sane enough to be raising a kid. Instead of using the mental health system to get help, how about the police or child services? It is against the law to treat kids like that.

2004-10-09 [Gwendylyyn]: It's called mental abuse. Sorry...just had to add that in.

2004-10-09 [silvergoth]: Maybe so... but social serveces has already been here 3 times... so, nothing will happen. and I doubt it'll help me anyways, seeing as how most of my family would be against me. My aunt understand me, but she's about the only relativ that does. Though, there's also much more too it than my problems with my mom. Dad has also mentaly abused me. and so have most people around me. But it's only ME they abuse. not my siblings, ME. I'm the so called problem shild it seems. I have a lot of problems, I know that. I know mom has some aswell, most people in my family have. . I'm used to being at the end of the list, or whatever to call it...

2004-10-09 [silvergoth]: My life wont get better by dragging this up to the social serveces, since I'm the only one of the kids that has it like this. my life will only get worse, and that is the last thing I need right now... That would probably lead me to my death. And I'll be moving soon anyways, then I can control most things myself.

2004-10-09 [HellzHalo426]: uhm... hello..

2004-10-09 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hiiiii! ^^

2004-10-09 [HellzHalo426]: hows it goin?

2004-10-10 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: well to go with what they were saying up there ^^ .. ive had the same problem .. all my life i have been put down for not being good enough and whatever . and igrew up believeing it .. and like a month or so ago . me and my dad got into it . and he was saying how he nvr wanted to talk to or see me again . and a bunch of crap like that .. and i guess i really didnt think of it being any kind abuse . just someone with a bad temper or whatever .. and ppl have been telling me that " ppl dont always mean whatthey say " . now weither that is true or not . idunno .. but i guess i just thought id share my lil thing thta ican relate to in this .

2004-10-11 [HellzHalo426]: ahhh... uhmm... i dunno what to say.. *huddles in corner*

2004-10-11 [Miss.Kayree]: yeah... it was kinda like that for me and my older brother.. when i was younger, my brother would get alot of that and i'd be the one watching my mom and him yell at each other.. i never understood what they faught about until i got older.. and when he moved out a couple years back, i've been getting full blow from her as well.. i've heard her say things to my little brother like "oh stop crying, you're getting to be just as much of a pain as your sister" and after one of our fights, she picked up my little brother and said "well thats 2 down, at least i have one left!!" 

2004-10-11 [HellzHalo426]: omg! that is sooo screwed up!!

2004-10-11 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: wow .. al i can say are parent ssuck sometimes ..

2004-10-11 [HellzHalo426]: rite on sister!

2004-10-12 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: hahah yeah ! we kinda are like sisters!

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: i take the yelling home.. better that than having both of my parents on my lil'bro and sis.. i once got beaten up for that my sister stolen candy.. but i tok the blame.. hmm parents sucks^^ damtidam..

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: I agree.... parents do... welll..... most do anyways... it seems...

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: yes.. but, hacona mattata^^

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: what a wonderfull phrase! or... um... yeah... don't really know the lyrics for the english version... only the swedish one... ^^;

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: O.o aaargh! i forgott! hmm.. but i know the norwegian one:P

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: =P lol.. sing a long in your own language.... Hakuna matata, de e ord some bra! oh, maybe should try to get the neglish lyrics instead.... -_-

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hacona matata! to besvermede ord!! i sooo agree!

2004-10-12 [Elegy - gone]: besvermede? jeg trodde det det var besnærende jeg...

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: eeeh.. kan godt være^^

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: Lol! ^_^ ibland lite svårt att höra vad dom sjunger... i alla fall i den svenska... inte hört den norska...

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: den norske er ille.. i alle fall der.. helt umulig^^

2004-10-12 [Elegy - gone]: den svenske er kul da! jeg liker den bedre enn den norske^_^

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: he he he ^_^ men det är ju hakuna matata, det ska va lite... konstigt.

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: gör du? coolt! borde försöka höra den norska en dag... så att jag med kan jämföra!

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hehe.. ja.. men det er det jo.. hmm.. har ikke sett den svenske jeg^^

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: ike hå så høye forhåpninger:P

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: ha ha! XD

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: håhå:P jeg burde konsentrere meg litt mer ja:S

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: på vaddå?

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: staving og ordsetting..

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: aa, okey.... ah, du vet, det löser sig. =P

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: joda.. men jeg skulle skrevet formulering i stedet for ordsetting.. blææh.. irriterende..

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: *rycker på axlarna* huvudsaken är att man förstår vad man menar. resten löser sig.

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: joa.. hvordan har du det idag da?

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: mamma förlorade vårdnaden om oss barn idag.. så... det är blandade känslor. själv ?

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hum.. syk.. så eg har isolert meg ved dataen med cola. så ganske bra tross alt... og. kan du si det på engelsk.. fatter ikke svensk^^

2004-10-12 [Elegy - gone]: jeg tror hun mener at moren mistet foreldreretten over barna...

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: ja... det va så jag menade...

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: oj.. det er vel litt rart?

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: känns ganska jobbigt.... allt ont händer efter varandra, hinner knappt andas ut emellan.. =( men inget att göra åt... hoppas bara jag får stanna här nere....

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hmm.. ja.. huffa.. *klemme*

2004-10-12 [bethbutterfly]: *blink* Anyways..

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hehe

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: *krama tillbaka* tack...

2004-10-12 [bethbutterfly]: Pinche moscas! XD *giggles*

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: sowwy

2004-10-12 [bethbutterfly]: Sowwy for what?

2004-10-12 [silvergoth]: *thinks* not sure, just felt like saying it

2004-10-12 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hehe-- poor u

2004-10-12 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: uhhh .,, cheese?

2004-10-13 [Little Red Ridinghood]: cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese?

2004-10-13 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: lol .. yes .. cheese!

2004-10-14 [Miss.Kayree]: ah.. what happened to the english? lol

2004-10-14 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: i know 1?

2004-10-14 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hehe.. weeeell.. hihi.. the evil fairies stole it^^

2004-10-14 [Miss.Kayree]: damn them.

2004-10-14 [HellzHalo426]: oohhh.. >_<

2004-10-15 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hihi^^

2004-10-15 [Miss.Kayree]: hello

2004-10-16 [RedHorizon]: mg,this wiki is so depressing!lol

2004-10-16 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: well yeah ... thats whats its for ,,

2004-10-16 [Little Red Ridinghood]: weeeell, not really but:P

2004-10-16 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: hehe

2004-10-16 [HellzHalo426]: ello!

2004-10-17 [tears of the mist]: hello

2004-10-17 [HellzHalo426]: how are yoouuU?

2004-10-17 [tears of the mist]: uh... ok i guess :) you?

2004-10-17 [HellzHalo426]: im splendid!

2004-10-17 [tears of the mist]: gd gd

2004-10-17 [HellzHalo426]: listenin to powder hee hee

2004-10-17 [tears of the mist]: ooooh ok.....

2004-10-17 [HellzHalo426]: yeahhh

2004-10-17 [tears of the mist]: o.O'

2004-10-17 [HellzHalo426]: ^_^

2004-10-18 [Miss.Kayree]: the wiki is alright now.. but i think everyone is here for anyone that needs comfort...

2004-10-18 [RedHorizon]: hello again,i hve come bac cause i am very depressed and evry1 hates me

2004-10-18 [tears of the mist]: no we don't Ice!!!!! *hugs her tight* no-one hates you

2004-10-19 [bethbutterfly]: Don't feel singled out, I hate everyone.

2004-10-19 [Little Red Ridinghood]: hm.. nice...

2004-10-19 [RedHorizon]: yay!so im not the only one,and yes mist,i am hated and i hate most ppl in return

2004-10-19 [Cute Deranged Psycho]: I HATE THE WORLD... my whole family is all like ahhh i hate people....

2004-10-20 [Miss.Kayree]: hm. i dont hate the WORLD... i hate the people in it. namly the ones around the place i'm at...

2004-10-20 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: yeah thats how i am .. im really starting to hate perople . to many ppl are mean . and to many ppl are judgemental before they get to know the person .. and that really pisses me off

2004-10-20 [Miss.Kayree]: alot of the people here just dont seem to really.. FEEL... they are like... robots or something..

2004-10-24 [BarleySinger]: most people who are mean and/or judgemental are so totally locked inside their own heads they don't have any idea that the things that they do are hurting real people. To them, the things that they do are totally about them (like a 3 year old). People (as they grow up) are supposed to get past this stage of life, but some never do.

2004-10-24 [Miss.Kayree]: which is a tragedy...

2004-10-24 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: yeah ..i dunno . it just bugs me sometimes ..

2004-10-25 [BarleySinger]: Of course it bugs you. It is annoying.

2004-10-27 [bethbutterfly]: Oh don't get me wrong, I feel.. it is just that I don't pour it all out on other people who don't care about my personal problems, so I am just saving them the misery of having to hear anything about my life.

2004-10-27 [Miss.Kayree]: thats what this wiki's for.. to let it all out

2004-10-27 [silvergoth]: *nods* everyone needs to let it all out every now and then...

2004-10-28 [BarleySinger]: otherwise you end up nuts

2004-10-28 [tears of the mist]: *agrees*

2004-10-29 [RedHorizon]: yeah,like i need 2 let it out now....y does evrything so sooo badly wrong in my life???cant i be happy 4 1nce???

2004-10-29 [tears of the mist]: *hugs* let it out, let it all out

2004-10-29 [RedHorizon]: me..ok???y is my life like this???y cant i just be wiv some wiv out any drama?????

2004-10-29 [tears of the mist]: *nods gently then sits* why do you ask these questions??

2004-10-30 [RedHorizon]: cause raz is sick!!!!y cant i love some1 peacefully and 4 nothing 2 go majorly wrong??

2004-10-30 [tears of the mist]: *hugs jenn tightly*